Seeing the beauty in Lockdown April 2020!

Seeing the beauty in Lockdown April 2020 – is this possible?

First off, I want to say my heart goes out to all the family’s that have truly been affected by Corvid 19 virus and huge thank you to every single person out on the front line, you are all Angels in my eyes…

As April is ending, it is time to reflect on all the amazing things that have happened since going on lockdown and the not so good!

I am going to start off with Healing…

The lock down so far has allowed me to heal more, in ways I had not even realized that I still needed too. I have had time to grieve more for the loss of my Dad, that I did not even know was still needing to pour out of me!

My body has been healing too. Before the lock down I was getting messages from my feet (yes, our body speaks to us, if we listen). Was I paying attention to this? (not really) It let me see just how much pain I was in that I ignored.

The difference in my legs and feet are amazing since I have had time to realign again over this last 6 weeks.

Are you receiving any messages from your body? Any form of pain is an indicator it is time to pay attention…

Reconnecting with my own Soul speed and not the speed of what I was reacting to.

So many of us do this without even thinking. Its Yes to this Yes to that and before you know it, all you promised your self did not happen again…

Hands up I was caught up in this one, now I have come back to centre again. I am moving at my own Soul speed; it is amazing how fast I was living even though I thought I was going with the flow!

No wonder I was tired! 🙂

How about you beautiful, are you moving at your own Soul speed or are you caught up in the fast lane of life?

Creating & Igniting Joy again even during grief and the lockdown by playing with miracles and my garden. Behind my garage there was a very unloved part of the garden and to be honest I truly needed a miracle to take this on and do it by myself.
Long story short, what a transformation already its now called the miracle garden 😊 the next phase is putting lots of love into the soil preparing it for planting herbs veggies and some flowers.

This project (that I put off for 12 years) has brought me so much Joy. To start with lots of tears for my Dad. Allowing tears is so good for you and I personally do not care when they come. Just so happened a lot of them have come in April even amongst the weeding. 😊

Other areas that the Lockdown has Ignited Creativeness is writing my blogs again, creating a new home office, that I must admit I love coming to work in. (I have got over the fact it used to be my girls’ room) …

As she informed me a few days ago, Mumma if things did not work out with me and my boyfriend, next I will buy my own place… (she would) ha.

To wrap up April and this blog I can truly see the beauty in Lockdown April, even though it’s been difficult at times missing the hugs from my kids and grandkids. Its allowed time for healing on so many levels and a remembrance of what is truly matters to me. Good health being back at the top!

I would like to ask you my lovely, what has changed for you in Lockdown April, and can you see any beauty in it?

You can leave me a comment below?

Much Love

Margaret xx

PS Image –  Sunrise by Margaret MacDonald 🙂


I’ve Never Done Life This Way Before

Ive never done life this way before…

Last year sadly I lost my Dad to cancer and the same year I became an empty nester. In my grieving process I have found it helpful to write again, this is what came to me recently…

 

I’ve Never Done Life This Way Before

I have never done life this way before

No children to nurture at home

No Dad to drop in and see.

They are all on their own paths now! 

At home, its only me 

I have never done life this way before –

So how do I Know what to do!

Who to help or to who to see?

It has never just been me.

It is all so new to me –

In the newness I will flourish

Wisdom will show me the way.

For she knows what is best for me

I have never done life this way before

It is all so new to me!

 

After having this insight, I realised that I have not done life like this before, it is a whole new way of living. My Dad was a huge part of my life that is just going to take time to take it in.

One thing I know for sure he would have hated the lock down and probably glad he is out of it 😊.

As well as grieving for my Dad, I went through another grieving process for the empty nest…

It is something I have fully honoured not hurried or rushed. Its real as any loss and it deserves all the compassion you can bring to it.

Maybe you are like me and going through great loss too. If you are (which could even be going through Lockdown grief) please go gentle with yourself…

As always thank you for reading,

Much love

Margaret xx

PS, please feel free to leave me a comment below, or if you prefer email Margaret@goddessinthecity.com